Maybe it really is just me?
So it turns out upon more research that people with tourette syndrome also have sleep issues. Like not being able to get to sleep. and being tired the next day. Like I have had to deal with my entire life. these issues are especially prominent in people who are comorbid with ADHD or OCD and are usually diagnosed as a form of sleep apnea when the real underlying issue is the OCD/ADHD/Tourette’s/etc. I’ve lived 34 years and tried to do well, often excelling at many things I have done only to be fired for looking like I am on something or because I’m just “lazy”. How could it take me this long to realize that the same thing that happens to me at every job for my entire adult life has to do with my underlying mental bugs that do NOT keep me from being able to do a good job? I just feel stupid sometimes to not have realized this further.
I have given my former employer an ultimatum: they can either rehire me and do some serious butt-kissing or they can go for door #2 and prepare to deal with the courts and the press because I am mad as hell and I’m not going to take this anymore!
It’s time for a reckoning
So, apparently my former employer is a little bit scared of talented but quirky people, so they decided to terminate my employment. Unfortunately for them they have let the wrong guy go. I have contacted wrongful termination lawyers and the company who I will not name until I get a response from them is going to lose a LOT of credibility. I haven’t even filed my BBB complaint yet. You can’t just run someone 800 miles across the country, commit to a 12 month contract, and then decide “hey maybe I’d like this other guy better” when the person you terminate consistently over-performs their peers. I have informed the corporation of my intent to sue and if they do a real nice job of sucking up I might not take them to the cleaners. I’m not going to put up with being fired for being different anymore. I have Tourette Syndrome. I’m not a cokehead. Employers who treat people like me as disposable need to be held accountable and I assure everyone that I will do my very best to make an example of this particular corporation this time. Because I’m a human being. My life has value.
Multimedia
I am about to start a YouTube channel under the same name – but not to philosophize in a hopefully relatively objective manner but rather in a concerted effort to do as the nickname says. will likely lead to branch-out channels but for now, planning a couple of intro videos with DIYish tips and perhaps commentary on the GMC mind control machine (GMC here being government media complex).
apologies for lack of formatting/etc. I just found this, kicked back by someone close, and I guess I wrote it about a year ago..
Am I the only person who sees Obama telling the truth out of his other face while he prattles on about how his administration is not responsible for anything, and BP was greedy and evil, and we (Obama and his cronies) would never have let things get this bad, and…
I mean, really? Can the president who is ALWAYS talking about social commitments being our personal responsibility REALLY be this cavalier about his OWN responsibilities? He’s the doggamned president, man, the POTUS. The HNIC. Know what I’m saying? If the buck stops anywhere, it should be with him. What a topsy-turvy world we live in where the people carry this nation on their backs, and up on top of capitol hill, the FatCats in Washington just sit around, blowing our money, pissing it away like it’s their freakin’ job, showing NO accountability, NO responsibility and then telling US that WE need to take responsibility?
Man, I call Bullshit. I believe in PERSONAL responsibility, not social responsibility. The kind of responsibility you take up of your own volition, not the kind you are guilted into, or the kind forced upon you by TPTB, or the kneejerk reactionary kind that inevitably pops up every time TSHTF. It’s SNAFU, it’s FUBAR, and it is also other acronyms. It’s DawGammed Weeediculous.
On PSYOPS and Gangsta Run-Ins and Other Creepiness
Okay, this may sound a little odd, but I don’t care because it is straight from my heart and there is enough plausible truth in it to post.
Saturday night I watched the movie “Sucker Punch”. Strange movie, strange editing. There are several “dance” scenes but instead of showing any dancing, in each scene the POV falls back to a “fireteam” of 4 or 5 girls trying to accomplish a mission objective in a thoroughly rendered 3D VR space. Why do I use the term fireteam? because each one of these “dance” scenes feels just like an extended version of thee cool new VR air force scifi style promos that are live on tv. My point? “Sucker Punch”, a PG-13 movie that should in no way be rated PG-13 (big strings must have been pulled here), is a movie that masquerades as a musical about a girl who is institutionalized when it really is a series of subliminally calculated military recruitment films tied together with crap renditions of popular music songs were meant to talk about thinking outside the box, now modified to forward the idea that you should join a group and sacrifice for said group. And if those scenes were not put together by someone from the DoD I will eat my hat. watch it (preferably OUTSIDE of a movie theater as the hypnotic effects will be lessened) and see if you can’t see what I mean. very creative, great effects, but I am convinced that it is a PSYOP designed to get teenage girls interested in joining the military, perhaps specifically the air force given the parallels between these “dance scenes” and already out air force recruitment commercials.
But wait.. it gets creepier. Those of you who know me on Facebook know I have found some really pernicious spyware and found it manually and deleted it. Well, it reinfected, none of my software seems to be able to catch it and it did the strangest most arbitrary thing I’ve ever seen such a piece of software do: When I tried to submit my “Sucker Punch = PSYOP” assessment to Alex Jones (infowars.com) the submit kept failing. for no apparent reason. fine, maybe their server is overloaded, right? So I go to turn on their podcast to listen for a number to call, and “Windows Firewall” pops up telling me that my listening to a freaking shoutcast stream is a “security risk”. Now that dog don’t hunt, because a> I never have run windows firewall and I know how to disable it and b> EVERY OTHER WEB SITE WORKED NORMALLY INCLUDING WEB SUBMITTALS AND SHOUTCASTS FOR OTHER RADIO STATIONS. The prognosis? Something purposely blocked me from submitting to the Alex Jones radio show. I know that sounds paranoid, but I don’t think it’s some specific guy out there watching my every move screwing with me. I think some automated piece of malware either detected the subject matter or the destination of my post and ran it across a blacklist of sites. That would be quite plausible. But who stands to benefit from doing this? Only people who are against free speech (or the uncovering of potential military secret ops). Now *that* is special </Bill Hicks>
That machine has been taken down for forensic analysis. Will find the truth if I have to pull it out like eyeteeth.
Shortly thereafter I do to jam/hang out with a local band I’ve gotten to know since moving to the Memphis area. On the way there, a car zooms up behind me, starts tailgating me and honking horn and flashing its brights. My brights are not on and all my lights are functioning normally. Take the left turn (there are other people at this light), and slow to take a U turn and they slow down and pass me and sync up, and 2 black males who look like obvious gangsters (matching colored bandannas and all) are sizing me up from a small, probably import convertible before they pull into the diner that I am turning away from. Creepy, right? I asked my downstairs neighbor who is Collierville PD and he said that was strange and creepy and he’d not heard of such a thing happening especially not in that area (N. Germantown near 240 and 64) but he’d look into it. This is a man who deals with criminals every day and has training on organized crime in Memphis (which is rampant). Weird, huh? So I was either singled out for not being local (but why wouldn’t they continue screwing with the white boy if that were their intent) or mistaken for another vehicle (and verification that I was not a rival gangster or similar made them step away). Either way, a very unusual occurrence and one that even in the gang-riddled Memphis area would be considered anomalous.
One more note Re: PSYOPS – there is one traveling urban slang that white extremists have decided that the word Zombie=Black. As in black people. Now, being a non-bigot but an avid horror movie fanatic I find this highly offensive, but someone is out there spreading this rumor. Now somehow anyone who likes to be prepared can be lumped in as a racist. Whoever is running this PSYOP must me someone who has something to gain from major racial conflict. Politicians? Ammo manufacturers? George Soros? Who freaking knows. What I *do* know is that it is patently false. Don’t let sourceless rumors like this cloud your judgement, folks.
I have no way of knowing if any of these things are truly connected, but they sure spooked me that night. I welcome any feedback on the matter.
Identity Crisis Mitigation
I am not a Republican.
I am not a Democrat.
I’d like to be a Libertarian, but Ayn Rand “libertarians” need to check their sources, because she despised you.
I can find almost nothing likable enough about the vast majority of politicians or pundits to really believe in any of them.
What do I believe?
I believe in freedom. Not in freedom that the media and politicos try to sell you. Actual freedom. As in, “And if ye harm none, do as ye will.”
I believe that most people mean well, most of the time, no matter what they are told, and sometimes in spite of themselves.
I believe that the inevitable incestuous and cronyist phase of any “free” society is unfortunately well upon us, and truly at war with the real virtues and ideals that made this nation (the United States of America) great.
I believe that the crony capitalist and nanny-state corruption is so firmly entrenched that standard appeals to the Pathos, Logos, or Ethos of the vast majority of people who are elected and empowered to help make life better no longer are sufficient to keep this nation free and strong.
I believe that real change did not arrive after the elections of 2008, though I do think that fellow in the White House came into this job with the best of intentions.
I believe that the people who make policy in this country are by nature or nurture too far removed from the people they represent to serve in their appointed functions any more. That they are a de facto presence and that near-universal liberation of these posts of power to new blood with fresh ideas is crucial in these times.
I believe that the populace in general is not so much stupid as they are numb from the ridiculous back and forth, Thunderdome-style pageant that goes on in front of them every day that they are often paralyzed, hypnotized, subverted, and are so frustrated with the whole mess as to just accept the “inevitable” — that we’re either getting Jerk A or Jerk B for any given position, so we might as well either vote with “our guys” or not at all.
I believe that real change is inevitable, that it does not require violence or malice of any kind, that we don’t need to look to our failed leaders to provide it for us, and that it is – by design – OURS for the making.
I believe that signs are everywhere, loads of people making a living “articulating the popular rage“, and that is all well and good, but does anyone have real answers?
Yes.
I believe that there are many people providing answers (and asking the right questions) all around us every day, but they are mostly working from the bottom-up. change will not be top-down as so many past leaders have promised.
I also believe that I am far from alone.
